1 cup

That's what I gained this week. there is 16 oz in a pound, and I lost 0.6 of that which equals 9.6 oz, which is a little more than one cup.

Not bad. I made decent choices this week. Made some really cruddy ones too, so I can accept that I didn't lose this week.

I made my veggie goal this week but not my fruit goal, I was close, but no strawberry.
This week's goal is to not eat while I am at the computer. I'd like to curve my mindless eating.

Choices I made today:

• not going to Godiva at laurel park place after my meeting
• choosing to eat before i went to the grocery store (i typically don't eat before meetings which are at 10 am) because I was starving
• choosing to go through a drive through instead of the shrimp i still want at red lobster. Jimmy's 12th bday is Sunday & we'll be going out for that.
• choosing to go to taco bell instead of mcdonalds. I would have gotten fries.
• choosing to get the fresco soft tacos. 8 points for 2 steak soft taco's isn't bad.

Not horrible choices. I did choose to have two pieces of pizza with the boys at dinner though, but it was only two, not the four i prefer to have (or used to prefer to have, i really am satisfied with two now. I tried to just have one, but i went back for more).

my point exactly

Credit please

I want credit for not buying the frozen cool-whip frosting at the grocery store. You know, just to "try it". There is no point. If I don't like it, I wasted money. If I do like it, I would probably end up eating the entire package.

There are just some foods that I cannot have in the house.

• Little Debbie Snack cakes : of any kind
• Chips. Even in the single serve size, they are still four points each & I cant stop at one package.
• Scoop-able ice cream. I'm fairly good at eating only one diet ice cream  I also decided today that I don't need to buy regular ice cream "for the kids". They don't need it either. We'll stick with skinny cow and weight watchers
• Most forms of candy. Yes, I know that 3 Hershey kisses are only 2 points. But an entire package is costly!
• Skinny cow fake candy. I can deal with a single serving package, but not a whole box.

the choice of today

Today's mindless eating is brought to you by carrots. 0 point carrots with no ranch dip.

oink

Little Debbie snack cakes have been banned from my home. I think they make them with crack. Seriously. Even after I looked up the points (which is 8 for the two little cakes, by the way),  I still ate way too many. The first round I ate one of the cakes and threw the other one away. I know anyone reading this that grew up in the depression era is yelling at me for throwing away food. I could send it to the starving children in Africa, but they don't need junk food.  I had 4 points and I counted them. 

Then there was this afternoon.

Frustrated with my research paper, I started munching. and munching. and before I knew it, I had eaten 3 more packages!. Yikes, that's 24 points. 

But it doesn't stop there. I ate a whole plate of cheese bread at the bowling alley. The saddest part, is that it didn't really even taste that good.

Tonight the boys and their friends had a movie night at school. I hid in one of the classrooms and did some school work for a while. I thought the movie was over, so I came out. One of the moms told me that there was still 15 minutes left. I decided to walk. I walked up and down the third grade hallway for about 5-10 minutes. That will only earn me one point back, but hey, it was exercise! And, when I got home, I shoveled.

On the good side, I have had fruit with my breakfast for two days so far and veggies with my lunch once. I'm on track to complete that goal at least. I'm going to print out my inspiration picture from the previous post and tape it to the fridge and the cabinet and the computer. Tomorrow starts a new day.

inspiration

Emotional Eating

I don't think I lost this week. This has been a stressful few days. I am struggling with my class. I am expected to turn in the first 9 pages of a research  plan, but I am having a difficult time getting started picking the topic to do. It has to be something I can actually research later on in the program.

And then there is family drama. I have been renting out my dad's old house. Its the house I grew up in. I don't know why I am trying to hold on to it. He's ready to let it go, I should be too. I decided to let my  nephew rent it with his friends and other assorted roommates. The problem is that they are all young. When there were 4 people it was fine. Now there are only three. That only leaves enough money to pay my dad the mortgage and I'm stuck with the utilities. I'm done with it. I told my dad to look into what he needs to do to give it back to the bank. I told the kids living there to start looking for somewhere to move. I am in the hole about $1600. Its only about a grand when my nephew pays his back due rent and the one tenant pays me for January - which she promises she'll have on the 25th. Sigh. I'm done.

Its also not helping my weight loss efforts. I have been making poor choices this week. The reese's peanut butter cups at the grocery store, the huge bowl of cereal when I got home. The ice cream I had before bed. I know when I show a gain this week, it will be because of the stress.  Most of the week I have made good choices.

I did  make my goal of eating fruit with my breakfast 5 of the 7 days this week. That's at least one good thing.

This week's goal. Eat fruit with my breakfast 5 out of 7 days AND eat a veggie with my lunch 4 out of 7 days.

UPDATE: Back from weigh in. My stress only cost me 1.2 lbs.